Am i that bad to you, ma?

U set me these rules , i can list them down :

1) Can't go out at night
2) Can't go out with friends to KL, wherever
3) Can't always hangout even though the place is nearby
4) Can't sleepover friend's house

and the list goes on..

Why do u always make me feel like i am a bad person? Like i don't have a heart , the way u say it, tear this little heart apart! Am i that bad to you? I already get used to all the things u want me to do and not to do. I follow every little thing u say. I shared my dreams with you, and u laugh at it, do u know how i feel? Ma, why, ma? I am freaking upset, and u don't know that. I wont walk up to you and say No to all the things u say. U don't know me now, ma. You don't know how i feel now ma. You've changed! What happen to all the night kisses and mother-daughter talk? U always have the time for me, for all of us. But now, No! Where did i go wrong? Is there something that i say or didn't say this time? Do u know how i feel ? I've tried my best to impress u but then i think that i always failed to do so. Do u know that my emotion is actually my weakness? I love you, ma. I'm feeling so down, right now. I am very sorry i am not a good daughter, for all the sins I've done, to you, to everybody. Why is it so wrong to you, when i want to have friends to talk to, friends that are willing to come and talk, and spend their time with me here? I can't go there, but they come to me, is that a sin, ma? We, teenagers have feelings too, we can't share with our parents, we share it with each other, people from our generation. Break ups, family problem, favorite bands musics and stuff. I learn sivik at school, to pick the right friends and i know where i am. If they do bad things, why should i tag along? Why should i do bad things when i know it is bad and not good for a girl like me? Why do u always have to think that when i go out with my friends, i will do something wrong and bad and maybe crazy like drugs, smoking or stuffs? I got brain too ma, i can think. I respect your decision, very much. I am the black ship of the family, true, ma? Is that true? Every word u say is a prayer, ma. I don't want to be a bad person. U want the best for me, what happened, now?

I am tired.

what happened to all my night kisses and mother-daughter talk?

:(