Give thanks to Allah

It have been 3 days, nothing to write. Today is a bitter day. Started the day with songs from michael jackson on TV3. Go to school, a friend of mine sing a song called you are not alone from michael jackson. Tribute on a paper, framed on my desk. Some say bad things, some say good. We all love you, M.J. You're the best. I grow up with your songs. Eventhough i am not a fan of yours, but you have a great voice.

You have picked the right religion to believe in that is Islam.

Can't believe he's dead. May Allah Bless your soul,

Mikaeel / Michael Jackson (1958 - 2009)

You Are Not Alone

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

Why did you wake me up?! Why?!

Why?!

Extract 3

1) According to Extract 3, Does happiness last forever? Why?

It doesn't. Nothing is perfect, so happiness can't be perfect. Life (like everything) isn't perfect. For happiness to last forever it would need to be. Without sadness, people don't know the meaning of happiness and without happiness, it's the other way round. You can't keep happiness forever. You can't have one without the other because to not have one would be to have a world where the other means nothing. What is world without living? I am a dummy for love, i search for the meaning of love in a website. Still, i don't understand the meaning, i don't get it, why does everything have to be some kind of lies? I googled for freedom, the website ask me to click on " get freedom now ", I click it to earn my freedom, but nothing happened, it leaded me to another website. Even trust is a lie. I'm tired of hearing " Trust me, i won't leave you " End up, you know the answer. What's with the comfort zone? There is no comfort zone. Even when you're happy, you're not in a comfort zone, you're just.. happy and laugh when u feel like laughing at something funny that is spreading in the atmosphere you're breathing. What i mean by comfort zone is, life and death in god's hand. Just like when, you saw your friend happy today, laugh like there's no tommorow, the next day, a little bird tell you that she's gone, forever. Anything could happen.

I am not asking you to trust me, but believe me, Happiness doesn't last, trust is a lie and anything could happen.

- Sya

Benci aku mimpi kau lagi

Awas, entri ini berbahasa melayu.

Kenapa kau tak lepaskan aku lagi? Atau aku yang tak lepaskan kau? Kenapa kau selalu hadir dalam tidur aku? Aku tak ingin la mimpi kau! Aku tak nak kau! Cuba aku mimpi duit ke, semestinya aku nak duit tu! Hahah, ye lah pandai aku bermain kata, macam lah aku kuat sangat. Aku mungkin kuat bermadah, nampak pun macam kuat tapi hakikatnya aku lemah. Bila bila masa aku boleh jatuh. Aku tabib kau sebab kau kuat, pandai bermain kata dengan lidah kau. Dengan lidah kau pun orang dah boleh sakit, hebat! Keberanian kau pun dapat kau tonjolkan, tapi bagi engkau hidup ini macam permainan realiti tv ke? Kau boleh tunjuk dekat semua orang yang kau berkuasa? Tambah lagi, kau seperti peserta yang konsisten dan mungkin, selalu dapat undian tertinggi? Salah lah cik abang. Aku tak nak bazirkan mimpi aku dengan imej kau dalam versi hitam putih. Tak nak lagi mimpi kau cium pipi aku, tak nak mimpi hari indah dengan kau! Aku tak benci kau, mungkin kau juga harus fikir bahawa, kau mungkin tujuh belas tahun, ye besar nombor dan umur tu, tapi apa kata jadi matang? Sedikit pun tak apa.

- Sya

Something for you to read

When it comes to love, I always think that I am a fool for this game . Hmm, every girls want what they want, a dream guy. I don't want to be demanding and I can't ask for anything, because to me, any guy is the right guy. Anyone can be the right guy. Sacrifice, Love and Understanding is the main point. Some girls want boys who can serenade them in the rain, someone who can cook for them dinner, someone who can hold your hand while watching the sun slip and sleep underneath the stars together. They can wish for a dream guy, someone who is willing to do all that for them. I just can't wish for anything like that, i don't have anything in my mind to describe my dream guy. Just nothing. Zero, none! If, IF i set my mind to look for a guy that is, sweet, brown eyes, brunnete hair, in this world, any guy with the characteristic stated could be the one, but what about the inner him? Will they love me just the way i am? Not everybody can do that, but for me now, i know a guy who can do all that and end all this pain and regrets. He is a great guy. Unlucky him, i can't really show him that i love him. I know this whole thing is still dim, a blurr object not ready to be an image. Everytime i see ur smile, i just can't stop hoping to see u. I want to meet u so bad. I'm yearning for a guy's gentle touch.

Hold me, don't ever let me go.

-Sya

What the fock?

My exam result :

1. BM - 70 A2 ( Frust gila tak dapat A1 )
   
2. BI - 81 A1 ( Nasib baik senang )
   
3. Modern Maths - 50 C ( Sucks, man )
4. Sejarah - 76 A1 ( I love Sejarah! )
   
5. Agama - 85 A1 ( Kuat agama ni, NOT )
   
6. Bio - 50 - C ( Tough ah, highest pun 55)
   
7. Chemist - 36 F9 ( Atleast tak fail lah kot )
   
8. Physics - 38 F9 ( Tak kisah langsung! )
   
9. Additional Maths - ( Serious tak dapat lagi )

&

1. Pjk - 70 A2 ( Ape cer? Kata senang? )
2. Sivik - 98 A1 ( Haha, gila bersivik okay? )

Teruk gila, nak buat macam mana. Dah otak macam tak boleh nak guna sangat. Penting, tak bagi mama datang ambil report card! Hahahaha!

Oooh I'm amazed

NOT!

Well, well. Let see. So if you think your changes make u feel good,then have it you own way then. Hahaha, I waste my fucking time, my fucking saliva talking about the same thing. Any bad changes u choose to make, won't make u feel good, honey! If you think you're cool enough to be that way, then you're wrong. I thought that maybe, leaving you might change u a bit, to goodie good side, but I'm wrong, i don't mind, it's between u and urself, i don't care. I can bet your bottom dollar that, good feelings u're facing right now, won't last. When you're facing ur worst, there will be no meds, there will be no sedative. You change yourself, face it.

This is not a sedition, think about it.

-Sya

What i learn today

While sitting, reading dictionary of Idioms, Glina enter the class with a book. I don't know what is the title because it is written in chinese, mandarin. I ask what is she reading, she said, Tips for women. I was like Ohhhhhhhh. After that, i continue reading the book that i read. A moment after that i ask her, AGAIN. What is that about, she replied, Its about women and complete happiness. She said that a women which u can say have achieved complete happiness is when :

1) You are very close with your family
2) A loving husband
3) Loving and clever children
4) Succesful carrier
5) A friend

There are many type of friends, these are the friends worth sticking with :

1 : Friends that truly understand
2 : Friends that always bring u up when you're down
3 : Friends that always care
4 : Always there when u need them.

I respect Glina for being so 'ready' to be a woman by reading that book. She is that friend to me. God, bless her!

- Sya

What i learned yesterday

Me and some of my classmates talked about something. This is that something ; laughing gas, alcohol, liquor and piercing.

#1 : Piercing
It started when i ask Syah about Haziq's new piercing. He pierced at his left lips. I ask Syah about Haziq's new thang. Then he said, " he just got it, school hols, u know. " Ok yeah, i understand. Came Azlan, he said, " looks nice ay, but he can't be a Wali " I replied, " Uhh, what is a Wali? " Wali is a male relative legally responsible for a bride. A boy that pierced, can't be a Wali eventhough he had repent and get rid off his piercing.

#2 : Alcohol & Liquor
I started the conversation, " So, u guys drink? " They replied, " No. " The asked me back, I said, " No way. " Syah asked me, what is the difference, what is the taste, seriously I don't know anything, so i asked Glina, she's a chinese girl. She knows a lot. She said that, Beer is not that strong and alot of craps that i don't really understand. She said that, alcohol is also good for your health, blood flowing something like that. I got this from a website,

The strength of beer is usually around 4% to 6% alcohol
Wine has an alcohol content of 9%–16%
Spirits, alcoholic beverages that have an alcohol content of at least 20% alcohol

#3 : Laughing gas
I asked them weather they know about laughing gas, they don't know, but only Aiman knows about it. This is not good, but really makes u laugh and feel better when u're feeling a bit stressed out. I don't do this laughing gas stuffs but, there are alot of things to share and learn. Laughing gas is actualy a compound name nitrous oxide. It's not good for your brain, it will make ur brain. When u take this laughing gas, ur brain will " stop " for awhile and all u can do that time is only laugh laugh and laugh.

That's all

-Sya

New soul?

Haha, so, can we really buy a new soul? Are souls disposable? Tetttt, the answer is NO. If we can buy soul, probably there will be, stores or even boutique for souls. Haha try to imagine, a soul with designer, Gucci, Couch? Pfft lame. Dispoasable? soul is not made up of tissues or whatever, soul is just soul. So yeah, that is not actualy what im going to talk about. Let's get this whole thing straight. Yeah, im a new soul here. Say hello. Not only in blogspot, in life too. I am glad that i can finaly breathe without without a 'life supporter' or so called oxygen or air, who used to be a very important person in my life, the one i always love, but now he's gone. Whatever. Since, im a new soul, i am ready to give and take, accept and deny, yes and no, think and respond and stuffs. I am ready, well 80% ready. Hahah. Whatever it is, i've learned what is true and what is fake, learning from my mistakes and yeah, perfection is now a part of me.

So, say hi to my new soul !

-Sya

Letting go

The hardest part is living is letting go. I've heard enough about letting go. Letting go of the one u love, letting go of something precious and so on. The other word after letting go is move on, these are the words i have to face for this while. Currently, listening to littlest things by Lily Allen, reminds me a little about my past, i just got to be strong. Be strong, but not too strong. Whatever i do, giving up is still an option. People say, don't give up easily, take your time, take a deep breath, give yourself a chance. I want to do that, Im trying my best now, to let go and move on.

Dear God, you are the only one i can depend on, save me from myself, save me from everything, every life obstacles. Forgive me, for all the things i did, every sin. Give me light, give me one bright light to start over a new life. Give me a chance to repent, hear me. You are my only hope.

-Sya